VaL

Fri, 24 Oct 2008 04:04:31 GMT

i finally got my car yesterday!
i love it
its so comfortable to drive
i never thought id get a new car as my first
well not literally new but its a year old
so far everyones told me that it feels so comfortable
godo loves it and already plans to buy stuff for it
he wants to buy me gold rims...eww no haha
and paint my fog lights yellow...negetive
im happy rite now =D

Sun, 21 Sep 2008 23:52:09 GMT

so my birthday is coming up
im excited
nothing planned so far
but i am taking the day off from work
the day of my birthday
and going with my family and godo to bucca d' beppo

im so fricken excited
im getting a new car
my parents wanted to get me a preowned(used) car
but they saw that the used cars are too expensive
and have too many miles used up
so they rather get me a brand new car
we went car shopping yesterday
and today
so far its between
a Scion xD or
a Honda Fit
preferably id choose the
honda fit any day
my mom and i saw the 09' fits
omg there so beautiful
there so different than the 07's and 08's

crossing my fingers for all this

Sun, 17 Aug 2008 22:13:32 GMT

this is my last week of summer school
finally i get a summer vacation
haha its a week long!!!
oh well i wanna finish skool and transfer already itll be worth it in the end
im off for 3 weeks from work
i really needed it
then im back to making $13.21 an hr yay!

things have gone back to normal
im glad and i want it to stay that way
ive realized who my friends are and
who was just an aquaintance (sp?) lol
helped ralph get monica back
but now i hardly talk to him since then
cus he wants to spend time with her but eh

my nephews bday party was yesterday
it was fun it was elmo themed it was cute
my brother in law got him the tickle me elmo tht is on 'e'
and my nephew got scared lol

Sun, 11 May 2008 04:10:27 GMT

its saturday
and im fucken bored
obviously i aint hanging out with godo 2nite
cus he said hes ganna either go to ralphs or
hang out with his church friends
but whtever

im fucken bored
(im not allowed to say fucken or any volger words
godo says its unattractive and not lady like
but its my lj i can say whtever i want
and im really tht extremely bored

raging waters coulda been better
my 2 staff members are bitches
they didnt let me eat until 3
and i didnt get wet cus they were off gttin on rides
while i took care of our stuff and the kids
then one of them got all pissy and bitchy cus she got in trouble by our traveling sc and sc
not my fault but whtever
im hungry
i only got to eat my slice of pizza 2day

im out
peace

Tue, 29 Apr 2008 02:35:42 GMT

good weekend had better but ehh

friday
saw forgetting sarah marshall
movie was funny
i recommend u see it

saturday
i hung out with the family and brother in law and freddys babys mama haha
ate they made smores and shrimp cocktails mmm
havent all hung out 2gther in a while

sunday
went to the boat with
ezra victoria david cindy and godo
then went to rent into the wild for my english essay

this thursday is my bfs bday =)
ganna go eat
and i finally get paid wednesday so
i get to buy him the stuff he wants
and saturday godos having a bday party
and everyones coming
no raving or partying
everyones coming
friends from his hs starbucks friends errbody

im out
hw time

p.s. the receiving end of sirens are breaking up =(
last show is on may 5th
i wanted to see them again for one last time

Thu, 22 Nov 2007 21:18:46 GMT

ok i guess i now see why Emily doesnt call me when the guys are ganna hang out
im kinda ticked off at the fact that Godo threw sumthing at his house last nite
and didnt even bother inviting me
everyone was there
jenna said maybe its a guy thing
bit emily jenna victoria were there
i bet if ralph scott and scotts friend werent there he woulda said sumthing cus he woulda felt out of place
its fucken annoying
he only wants to hang out or only invites me when it benefits him
its fucken stupid
so yes i had a reason to be mad or quiet on the fone last nite
im tired of waiting
i was ganna vent to him last nite
EVERYTHING but he fell asleep
last thing i said when i got off the fone was
'thanks for not inviting'
but he either didnt hear me or he didnt get what i meant
whtever
im just really hurt
that i actually cried last nite
and i havent cried in a long time
i guess i cried because im hurt
but i also cried because of how mad i am

Fri, 16 Nov 2007 03:06:57 GMT

recap on my life
since i havent written in this in such a long time

godo and i are still not official
i guess u can say we're still dating
i got the guts to ask him whts ganna happen btween us
i told him september passed, he got a job and he started skool already
his answer was "ill surprise yu"
idk if he means it
or if its jst his answer or getting away from really answering it
his way or pushing it for more time bcus he doesnt want me to be his girlfriend

skools been okay
i was tlkin to harriet today and we both agreed that
we didnt no that gcc was so spirited and they like getting all the students 2gther
2day they gave out free food
mmm chicken rice and lavash
on the first week of skool they gave out hot dogs
and they had outdoor laser tag
they like having bbqs and giving out free food
they also have activities and they did games for halloween
gccs not that bad
i think i like it so much more than pcc
ya they dont have alot of places to eat
but its better cus i wont gain the freshman 15 haha
i have more than 100% in my math class its thts possible
i guess cus ive been getting 107% on my second math test and 103% on the one he passed back tuesday
i score 10s 9s on my quizzes
for theatre arts i gotta raise my grade or else i gtta drop the class
if its too late to drop
i gotta retake it =[ fuck!
the rest of the classes
idk how im doing
i need to step it up
i guess im jst tired rite now
i need the thanksgiving break
and the 2 weeks so that i can regenerate during the 5 weeks during winter session

i love my friends more than n e thing
i love hanging out with jenna and jane and harriet
i have to at least hang out with jenna and jane every week
jenna and i had a hills nite at my house monday
but then she fell asleep and her side was hurting so i let her sleep until steven got home
i still havent seen jane since we went to ques =/
i shall hang out with her
i see harriet everyday so its kool
it isnt the way it was the first month or so when we started skool
but its fun to have her and kinny around
jason hardly ever shows up so its fun when he actually goes to skool haha
i love that alex mark erica and i are friends
i can talk to alex alot and tell her n e thing
so can she
ericas just funny
i love talkin to her
and i got to see her friday =]
she makes me smile everytime i talk to her
i hardly get to see daniela now
shes always working and our schedules interfere
i havent really seen n e one else from skool

i seriously wanna move out already
its frustrating being 19
and having my parents telling me what to do all the time
and having curfews on the weekdays
its stupid
im ganna be 20 or 21 and im still ganna have a curfew and lots of rules like i do now
its pathetic
my parents need to understand im not in high skool n e more
im growing up and im in college
they need to learn to trust me
i hang out with ppl that would never do n e thing to me
i dont drink or smoke
and im not hanging out alone or places im ganna put harm to myself

im out
peace

Sat, 13 Oct 2007 02:47:29 GMT

its annoying
he finally has a job
he told me till the end of september
its october already
how much longer do i have to wait for
its ganna be 3 months

i hate waiting on your every hand and foot
i want to go out on dates; real actual dates
see places ive never seen before
know that i am only yours
and that you wont leave me for another girl
bcus you can
i hate feeling alone
i hate that i hardly get to see you
i miss holding your hand
and you hugging me; holding me in your arms
i want the title
i want what everyone else has
i need you back

im done
peace

Wed, 03 Oct 2007 19:22:45 GMT

I made a really big mistake saturday
I feel stupid and I shoulda just stuck
With what I said and stayed home
I felt sick yet I went to go eat
And it only made me feel worse
But I went home rite after
But thts bsides the point
And at the end of the nite
I got into an arguement with godo
And got him really mad for the first time
idk I guess things have been rocky
We've been getting into little fights
And disagreeing for the dumbest things
Whtever
I guess the 4 things I talked 2 him about
Are stressing me out
And I have to work on them
Except for the fourth thing bcus it has 2 do with him

My bdays next weekend
What to do
?????

I wanna go clubbing
I've been 18 for a year
And till this day I still haven't gone clubbing
Veronica asked me if I wanted 2 go the nite b4 my bday
Oct 13 bcus yancys coming down to la
From uc santa cruz
I think I'm down to do tht
Idk

I'm out
Peace

Sat, 29 Sep 2007 23:18:28 GMT

im not in high school anymore......

Thu, 13 Sep 2007 21:17:53 GMT

Wow
I don't think I could possibly be any more bored rite about now
I wanna go home and take a nap
I'm really tired
I wanna see my nephew =/ I haven't been able 2 spend time with him and carry him

This week has gone by so fast
Its already thursday
2morrow?
Sushi and lazor tag possibly?
Daniela told me movies with vero yancy veros room mate and daniela
Idk which is ganna happen
But I've been craving sushi for 2 weeks now =/
I wanna go bowling again
I've been going running everyday this week
I've been going to the rosebowl
With Godo
My legs have been so sore
And its been getting me tired
I finally got wireless in my house
I'm so happy =]
Took me a year but
Better late than never
Haha

My wisdom tooth hurts
I wanna get them all removed already
AND AND AND AND AND
I wanna get my braces off

Goals for next week
1.wear my rubber bands on my braces
2. Study and go take my learners permit test
3. ??????
Ill think of more the next few days

Sun, 09 Sep 2007 18:57:37 GMT

friday:
i ended up hanging out with godo
nothing new, i guess
then he left to hang out with his car friends

saturday:
i hung out with reaneil
went to hooters
yummy hot wings
the best ever!

went to my grandparents house
it was my grandmas bday
but i was only there for an hour

godo picked me up
went bowling with kenny harriet david crystal and nick and emily showed up half way through the game

went to the bucks
got bored
cus everyone started leaving
and i was kinda on my own

went home
hung out with godo for a while
talked alot
got things cleared up
still iffy about sum stuff
but idk

i hate waiting around
he gets mad when i hang out with a friend
and when that friend is a guy
he kinda gets jealous
and lately hes jst been gtting mad that a friend of mine likes me
i told him
when a girl is single
guys are going to want to talk to her
and guys are going to want to hang out with her
his response was "but its up to the girl what actions she takes and whether she hangs out with them or not"
he cant get mad im not his gf
even though we act like were still 2gther
but he needs to understand that he cant get mad or tell me what to do
i dont do that at all

im out
day with jenna and jane =]
finally!

Fri, 07 Sep 2007 18:16:18 GMT

I'm finally done with school for the week
School has been,
Different
Yet
Interesting
I'm enjoying it
I guess cus its the first week
And I've only gotten math hw
Which was so easy

My schedules changed
New classes

Monday & Wednesday:
Math 145 8:15 to 9:15
Break
Theatre arts 101 9:30 to 10:30

Tuesday & Thursday:
Math 145 8:15 to 9:15
Break
Sociology 104 10:15 to 11:47
A really long break
Social science 124 1:15 to 2:47

Friday:
Theatre arts 101 9:30 to 10:30

I'm glad I have harriet in my classes
Cus I didn't wanna be alone
And I thought I was ganna take classes with daniela but I didn't

Mall and islands with
Mark alex and erica on wednesday

Yesterday after skool
I went to the mall with harriet
Then to auntie ems with her friends to celebrate her bday
It was fun

I'm hungry
Its friday
What to do 2day? Hmmm idk

I haven't seen jane all week
=[
I need a dose of jane and jenna
Lol =]

Wed, 05 Sep 2007 01:10:37 GMT

So I thought I'd update
Haven't done that lately

My mommy left saturday to colorado for a week
And my dad left saturday to vegas but he's now back

Veronica and daniela came over for a bit on saturday
Victor andrew jesse meda andrew mickey george came over
Hung out here
Sumthing almost happened
But my conscience was telling me not 2
Bcus of a certain person

Then as soon as godo nick and emily picked me up
I got a call and george was crying bcus meda got shot
Rite on my porch =(

I went to visit meda
At the hospital yesterday
With alex and shannon
I finally got to hang out with them
It was good to see meda
And he's doing better then I thought
He got out 2day
And I'm happy about that =]

Went to alhambra with steven jenna nick emily and godo
Then to godos
Spent the nite

Sunday went to momoberry and pinkberry with jenna and jane =]
Then came to my house 2 cook
Godo came over hung out here
Then rented a movie and spent the nite at his house again

I see him everyday and sumtimes I feel like I shouldn't becus he's ganna get bored of me idk but its not a good thing

He doesn't like me hanging out with his friends
And he doesn't like me being at starbucks

Kenny basically called them out on how he doesn't wanna bring harriet there bcus he doesn't wanna end up like godo and david
And having all there friends tlking to their ex gfs =/

I started skool 2day
I have harriet for 2 classes and hopefully for 3 if I get into my math class cus I dnt wanna take the afternoon one
Mon & wed:
math 145
Art:ceramics I

Tues & thurs:
Math 145
Sociology 104
Social science 124

And I'm free fri sat and sun
Yay for 3 day weekends haha

First project for sociology: go to a strip club
No joke =]

I'm outskiis
Peace

Wed, 05 Sep 2007 01:09:02 GMT

So I thought I'd update
Haven't done that lately

My mommy left saturday to colorado for a week
And my dad left saturday to vegas but he's now back

Veronica and daniela came over for a bit on saturday
Victor andrew jesse meda andrew mickey george came over
Hung out here
Sumthing almost happened
But my conscience was telling me not 2
Bcus of a certain person

Then as soon as godo nick and emily picked me up
I got a call and george was crying bcus meda got shot
Rite on my porch =(

I went to visit meda
At the hospital yesterday
It was good to see him
And he's doing better then I thought

Went to alhambra with steven jenna nick emily and godo
Then to godos
Spent the nite

Sunday went to momoberry and pinkberry with jenna and jane =]
Then came to my house 2 cook
Godo came over hung out here
Then rented a movie and spent the nite at his house again

I see him everyday and sumtimes I feel like I shouldn't becus he's ganna get bored of me idk but its not a good thing

He doesn't like me hanging out with his friends
And he doesn't like me being at starbucks

Kenny basically called them out on how he doesn't wanna bring harriet there bcus he doesn't wanna end up like godo and david
And having all there friends tlking to their ex gfs =/

I started skool 2day
I have harriet for 2 classes and hopefully for 3 if I get into my math class cus I dnt wanna take the afternoon one
Mon & wed:
math 145
Art:ceramics I

Tues & thurs:
Math 145
Sociology 104
Social science 124

And I'm free fri sat and sun
Yay for 3 day weekends haha

First project for sociology: go to a strip club
No joke =]

I'm outskiis
Peace

Wed, 29 Aug 2007 19:22:45 GMT

show was last nite
the receiving end of sirens
they were so good

i saw ozz there!
i saw his friend
so i texted jacob to give me ozzs number
to tell him but i turned around and saw him instead
it felt good to finally see him in almost a year
we sorta dated
then sum miss understanding caused us to stop talking
this all happened rite b4 godo
he went to homecoming with me
we made long trips to see each other
he ~~was~~ is a cutie =]
haha

went with diana jason and godo
emanuel was alrite
expected better

we always want what we cant have
and we always ask for too much
i know i do
i want that whole holding hands in front of everyone
not only when were alone
and kissing
going on dates

ive been noticing that
all we ever do is watch movies hang out at his house or go to starbucks
i wanna go beyond that
i guess rite nows not the time
i just hope everything gets settled
new job skool
then he'll be happy again

Mon, 27 Aug 2007 00:43:31 GMT

its funny cus
all of my moods haven't changed
for ones i want to have one that says happy or excited
just sumthing that isnt sad tired bored or aggitated

i finally told him that i dont want to be
another steven and jenna
he said he didnt wanna be steven and Jenna either
and he asked me if i want him to back away
and i said i don't =[
i know i should have told him yes
but i still want to go out with him and kiss him and hug him

this has been one shitty weekend
seriously it has been
I'm done ill write later

Sat, 25 Aug 2007 09:32:39 GMT

I was really sleepy
And I fell asleep for a bit
But then he called me
Tlked 2 him
More like he talked

I love him
Yes I said it
And its hard now 2 talk 2 him
And know that were just friends
And nothing else
Yet he hugs me
And kisses me
And holds my hand when were 2gther
And he did it last weekend
And now its completely different he acts like I'm one of everyone else
And it hurts.....A LOT

I don't wanna fall for him
Unless he's willing to feel the same way about me
And as much as it hurts 2 say this
But I have fallen for him
I don't see myself dating someone else
I don't
I don't won't want to be the person he falls back on if he can't find another giirl 2 date
He was not only my bf but also my best friend
And till this day he still is
But there's just some things I can't tell him
I could but I choose not too
I envy what jonathan and victoria have
I envy what kennie and harriet have

I want that bf that never forgets to take me to places he said he would
I want the bf that will call me every nite and that will say I love you to me bcus he feels it not just bcus he feels like he has to say it
I want that boyfriend that will visit me bcus he wanted to see me
Even if its for a kiss or to see me for a second

I miss you
You probably don't

I guess its safe to say
That I want you and I hope you
Want me to yourself

Mmm Yummy!

Sat, 25 Aug 2007 06:53:06 GMT

Today was fun
I got to see my nephew
He's so cute
And little
Isaac Logan Mossman
One cute baby =]

Jane piicked me up
Went to the santa aniita mall with her and her brother
Went to the supermarket
And baked cupcakes
They were so good
And they looked really pretty

Then we took them to starbucks
And gave everyone some

I miss you....
You know that?
I want to stop remenessing(sp?)
About the past
And start a future with you....
Your the only boii for me
I want to be the only giirl for you
Patience makes my heart grow fonder...

Fri, 24 Aug 2007 20:00:11 GMT

In my mind you never left
Falling wasn't true
I had faith you flew past the sky
Straight through the night
And the sun reflects the night
Carrying the very same thing
In your heart that saved me
But maybe you've stopped listening
Falling on my selfish ways
It takes faith to see
So close your eyes and search
Deeper than just memories
I never stopped believing in you and me
Your leaving never changed things
I've been here for too long
To just walk away
-underoath "The Best of Me"

things dont feel the same anymore
we were so distanced

then slowly

he started showing like he cared...about me
he wanted to be around me
and he actually wanted to hang out with me
it felt like he cared

but now......

it feels like he only wants to hang out
bcus i want to
or bcus he needs me to buy him stuff
i got him his tickets
i could have easily spent that money on sumthing else
or saved up

it sucks having your hopes high
then slowly they come crashing
i really miss how things were
months ago
when we were both happy
or so i think we both were

its frustrates me
that ive been lagging it on so many things
i need to hurry up and get things done

im scared of moving on with my life
growing up

im a big procrastinator
and i seriously need to work on that
its getting to me

alot of things are getting to me
and its bringing me down

watching him stuggle
brings me down too
i dont like seeing him unhappy
im trying to help
but sometimes he doesnt want to accept my help
i guess i can say hes my best friend
whether he knows it or not
he knows me more than my own family
and friends i went to school with for 7 years

Tue, 21 Aug 2007 18:57:49 GMT

ive been lagging it
so here i go....

saw Superbad
with nick and emily on friday

~~two~~ three funny movies ive been all summer
rush hour 3
superbad
i now pronounce you chuck and larry

i really wanna go to the receiving end of sirens show
just gotta get my ticket

hung out with vero jackie and yancy saturday morning

then with jonathan victoria and godo
met up with everyone else at the bucks
and went to old town

i like the place i am in my life rite now
but at the same time
i know i can work on it and make it so much better
i need to start making wise decisions

skools starting
my chance to start over
make improvements

this time we're not giving up....lets make it last forever

Thu, 16 Aug 2007 04:38:34 GMT

i haven't posted anything
mainly because ive been getting really tired
and i haven't had time

finally!
i am an aunt
my sister gave birth to
Isaac Logan Mossman =]
hes so cute and small
im excited to hold him again
he was born on monday
didnt really do much
and i finally got to watch the hills
eeek >.<
its going to be an exciting season!

yesterday
gcc with daniela
i havent seen her in a while
missed her =]

time off
then later hung out with ralph
then jane came
hung out for the whole day
t'was fun
then met back up with Jenna
at the bucks to see her
hung out there
went home

as for 2day
skool
the bucks with ralph and Jane
then KFC with raplh Jane and Nery
went home to start on my history final project
and i am officially done with it
=] and its not due till friday
so im happy that im not procrastinating

2morrow should be fun

okay...where do i start,
i dont know what to say...
mainly because i still feel the same
things havent changed
my feelings havent changed one bit
i wish they would
bcus i know they've changed for him
i guess at this point
i shouldnt get my hopes up
bcus im only setting myself to get hurt
i know what i want
but i guess i have to settle with what i have
its a risk im willing to take

you have someone that cares about you so much
that would NEVER cheat on you
someone that would go the limit
to make you happy and to see you smile
someone that would put anything aside and give you what you want
yet, that someone is still waiting for that one chance
that one chance that would feel like the world actually makes sense.....for ones

im out
peace =/

Mon, 13 Aug 2007 07:07:32 GMT

today started out shitty
when i was showering
my mom decided to take my fone away
cus i havent completed the scrapbook i was suppose to do for my sister
but i got it done...finally
after months of nagging
and
saying that i was ganna get it done

went to the movies with godo
saw rush hour 3
oh em gee
it was funny
2 good movies ive seen all summer....
i now pronounce you chuck and larry
rush hour 3
movies i def. recommend

went to the bucks after
hollywood boiis were there(janes name for them)
carlos ralph cynthia jason angel

came home
beats staying home

actions speak louder than words

Sat, 11 Aug 2007 17:14:10 GMT

i saw erica on thursday
she spotted me and ran outside of jamba juice
2 give me a hug
it was good seeing her

yesterday
got a haircut
nothing drastic or different
but just a trim
nothing special

jenna came over
went to her house
diana picked us up
i missed her so much
i havent hung out with her in months
we all talked caught up
went to eat at BJ's
had the pizookie
boii was it good >.<

went to pick up jane at the bucks
went to old town
walked around for a bit
then went back to the bucks to hang out with
ralph godo david victoria jonathan and nick
went home

my hearts almost complete
but you hold that missing peice
i feel so lonely
i want what i had
i want things to go back to the way they were
i wanna go to video hut
sit on the couch
and watch movies on a friday or saturday nite
or even on the weekdays when we got to see each other
i want to 'really' be happy
not smile because i dont want people asking me whats wrong

why is it so hard to want something
i cant have?
=/

shut up and drive

Fri, 10 Aug 2007 05:37:43 GMT

Boii am I tired
I hardly get to rest at home now
I'm here for maybe 30 mins at most
And 2day I only came home for 10 mins

Skool as usual
Went to my grandmas house for a bit
Went home
Left to the bucks
Met up with Jane ralph godo jason chocolate cesar nery

Went with Jane to melrose then american apparel
Back to the bucks hung out with nery and carlos for a few hours until
Everyone started showing up again

I just wanna sleep I've been so tired
I need to stay home more often now =/
But then again I don't wanna be bored.....